Please Excuse This Rant

I don't understand how love works. You think you are in love with someone, then you break up. Then you find someone else and swear you have never been so in love, then you two break up. The cycle continues to repeat itself until one of two things happens; you either find someone you are really compatible with and spend a relatively carefree existence together or you simply give up on finding love. At 21 years old it's impossible to say which direction I will end up going in the long-run. However, at the moment I feel as though I should never try to love again.

Men are too complicated. You go along in a relationship thinking everything is wonderful, then out of nowhere you are blindsided by the idiotic things your significant other has been doing behind your back. The things he has been doing might not seem so bad in another person's eyes, but to you it is a total violation of everything you two shared together. He swears that he didn't think he was doing anything wrong, but can he really be that stupid? So now you have a decision to make. Give him forgivness and try to move on or walk away and move on by yourself?

How is one person supposed to make such a big decision? You don't know which decision will be best for you in the end. You can't look into the future to see what you are supposed to do. You are basically stuck making an impossible decision that no one can help you make. Either way you are going to be hurt for a time. The question is, which hurt will be better for your soul? Love is too tricky for me. I have no interest in loving anymore, or at least for some time. Love is a complication that young people, such as myself, do not need.